Tuesday, October 28, 2008
6:11 PM
hey guys ! how is yr life ? yearning to go to arcade again ! but cant ! realli dont have the feeling to post anything , so this is just a crappy post ! sec 3 is comin ! i really want to study hard but i vant due to me slacking . but i still cant forget you ... but i guess , u have forgotten me . maybe u did it to show me that u dont care anymore ... maybe i should not care but I CANT ... it is very hard for me ...
To forget you: That is the most impossible thing to do.
To forget is just an interpretation. An immeasurable love’s memories can never be wiped off. Time doesn’t devour memories: It just slowly, painfully converts it into fragments of a dream. Occasionally, something will spark the wrath of the dream, and the dream will alter into a memory again.
To forget you. Is not to remember you. Every single detail in life reflects you. Every MRT Station I see, every drink I drink, every shirt I wear. But to forget you, what I have to do is not to remember you: Not to remember that we once_______ at this place, not to remember that we once ______________, not to remember that you ____________.
For now, sinking into a memory of one of the touches you_______ on me, I cannot remember the physical touch, but I can remember the delicacy of it.
Have I forgotten you, ____________? When I tried to forget you, I had just thought of you again. Are you, are you thinking of me now, as my mind revolves with your image, again and again?
It was not a decision based on emotions when you decided to break the news to me. You had thought of it for months: The happiness that we shared, it is never going to last, and if that is so, why still pursue a love that is going to writhe away soon? Why create more happiness, when You know that this ring of glee is going to be part of a memory that you will dearly miss, and I will heartbreakingly forget?
Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can’t they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration.
Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lover for years? That is plain silliness.
Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of his own life, for his lover? That is plain stupidity.
When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers’ true stories.
Because when You decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that I once heard, a novel you once read and a movie we once watched.
When I step out of the main door, I love you deeply, but am going to tell me that we are going to separate soon.
The pain is not the separation: The pain is the love that we share; the love that was once so blissful is never going to be refreshed again.The pain is that we are still so much in love, yet we have to let go now. Only someone who had experienced this before will understand.
Isn’t it ironic? It is my profound love for you that brought us together. Now, it is the same profound love that will separate us.
I am thinking of u every hour , minutes , day , night and seconds ... but did u ???
We are separated by a pair of closed gates between us. What you need to do is to push a button on your remote key and the gates will swing open: But if it swings open and breaks off the barrier between the both of us, the gates will hit me as it swing outwards towards me
Breaking the barrier will allow us to be together, but one of us will be hurt. One of us has to give way, and I have volunteered to be the one.
I don’t remember the tears; I only remember the pain.
“You’re like the North Pole of a magnet bar, and I is also like the North Pole of a magnet bar. There’s no way for both of you to be close together. There’s a force that’ll always push you both apart. This force is called the obstacle, like interest differences, communication problems and etc.
“However, if you put a metal bar in between, both you magnets will stick to it. And you’ll be close to each other. That metal bar dissolves the force that pushes both of you away. And that metal bar is what we called love.”
“Alright then, love him while you can. In love, there’s only love or don’t love. Since you love him, do it now.” The old man said.
I realized that everyone had a story to tell: The auntie selling fish soup may have the most romantic love story; my old and stubborn Literature lecturer Mrs Goh may have the most tragic story to tell. Yet I always pondered on the poignancy of my own story, as if my story superseded all of theirs.
If I had one of the abilities of God, I would have chosen to relive my past, and slowly, tenderly, treasuring every single hour, minute and second with you. Every single moment with you.
But it was too late. All too late.
--- adapted from To forget you and i believe you .
Why must I always wear different masks wherever I go?
I am so sick and tired of my life. Who can help me tear away these masks of mine that are lingering in my skin? Why must I play the role of a strong daughter in front of my parents, a smart student in front of my teachers and a contented girl in front of my classmates? Why must I keep on telling everyone around me that I am the best, by putting on the multiple masks of disguise for different people?
This afternoon, I looked into the mirror and realized that I could no longer recognize myself.
My reflection was of a faceless girl, awaiting the next mask to be placed on.Why are we always trying to pose for the best posture for the camera, when we know we can never change reality?
“A few days ago, Sunny and I go into a MRT train. I told her to sit on the chair in front of me, so that we can see each other. But after we sit, many people come in at Raffles Place MRT Station. Then they block my view. I cannot see Sunny anymore. Then at Jurong East MRT Station, all the people go away from the train, and we see each other again. Then Sunny come to me and said ‘See? You’ll just have to wait for me. That’s what true love is all about. Just imagine those passengers as obstacles in our love: They may be blocking us, but I know you’re just in front of me. Nothing on earth can stop our love, okay? If you cannot see me, just wait for me, okay?’."
-- adapted from a photogenic life
"How far will you go for your true love?"
The suffering is momentary; the love is everlasting...
-- adapted from you are here .
i hope you guys will understand the meaning of love . dont let it slip out of yr hands before it is too late .
Will you ever notice me...
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
10:56 PM
hey guys ! it has been a long time that i haven blog le ... 9 days is very long !!! but quite happy and disappointed with my results ! but i feel like i have not mood to do anything at all ... like EMO i guess ... (which BO MUN likes) well , 50% of emo RAWKS ! see ? i m mad from my emo-ing @!
!@#$%^&*&%%well , i guess life is BAD ... guess that better be dead than alive ! hahas... well , been facebooking for all these time with real estate and pet society ...
even though my results are bad ... but guess wad ? i went t0 my fav class ! 3 AMBER ! woohoo ... had a restaurant yest. but was kinda of unorganised that we got a scolding ... IN LOVE WITH ... FALL & I WANTED YOU by INA !
but seriously , i cant stop thinking of you ... if u (my friends) see me smiling , but actually , i m not ... i m just putting on a mask . thats all ... i really dont want to say anything cos i dont have the mood to do it ...
going to see a movie soon !
I M STILL LOVING YOU ... I REALLY CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU ....
Will you ever notice me...
Monday, October 13, 2008
6:41 PM
I really do not know why but I feel that my heart is really HURTING ! I really do not know what to say but I feel really miserable … without u by my side …
Every minute , every second ,my heart , mind and soul have been thinking about you … and I really don’t know who to pen it on , therefore , I decided to pen it on this … I really have nobody to talk to … I really wished that you are by my side … even though our parents know about it , we must at least face it together … we cant possibly hide it away right ?
But we must face it together ! really … u told me that you will not break with me … but in the end , you still break with me … but do you know how I feel ??? I guess you are really heartless to feel … I really feel like crying out … but to who ? and to cry for who ?
I told myself to stop hanging on to the past and move forward …but however , I just cant do it … seriously … I feel that you are my life … my first stead , even though I break woth him after 7 mths , but after meeting you , my whole life changed … seriously … being your friend to your stead , it is INDEED a wonderful thing … but now , it is like this , I think we better go our own way … I do not wanna us to b hurt so deeply in this way … so , JUST FORGET ME . I understand that you may be heartbroken or watsoeva … but sticking to me , isn’t the way to solve the prob . so yah .. just forget me .
What if you have no tomorrow to look forward to ?
Maybe it’s not about what tomorrow can offer to you , but about what you can offer to today . – adapted from Low Kay Hwa – I believe you
Now , there is another situation … which concerns my family …
My parents say that my bro go steal my family’s $$$ I do not know why does he want to steal … but my parents say that if he is the one , my mother wants to bring him to the neighborhood police centre . I really do not know why my family have to go to such extend that I do not have anyone to talk to … my bro always do this kind of things . AND , I AM HELPING HIM TO KEEP THIS PROBLEM … I really do not want to have a record … seriously !!! i need comments !!!
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, October 9, 2008
7:54 PM
last but not least , the comic that i collected from book 15 to 18 but quite exp . 1 bk cost $8.50 !!! every 4-5 mths then come out seh ...
but i think i will scan and put it up e next time ! cos my printer got prob !!! argh !
Will you ever notice me...
6:16 PM
just say , today , is the 1 month break up with him . IDK wad the reason was , but i wasnt the one who send that msg . seriously . u want to believe or not , IS UP TO YOU . well , today , i got to go to JURONG EAST to collect my book ! which is my fav !!! OMG , well , have to meet Sharon ! wake up so early to blog and blog-shop !!! but another black skinnies a few days ago ... IN LOVE WITH IT ! WILL BE BUYING HOODIES E NEXT TIME ROUND ... as for the exams , overall is == fail fail lorh ... IDC anymore . pass pass lorh ...
cos this year is really slacky for everyone ... IDK wad happened to everyone in class ... but i want everyone to stay together THROUGH THICK & THIN even though we r gonna separate class cos some of us are going to 3 amber , 3 ruby , 3 pearl a , 3pearl b ...
i m sure everyone will miss each other ... but we must try to spend the time together better !
but we must still have the time we spend together in OUR HEART !
we spend 1N3 , 2PearlA ... wad is next ?
talking abt exam , some of the papers are hard man ! but try your best to wish for excellent marks !
now , i want these items ! hope you guys can give me !
yup ... these are all for now .
Will you ever notice me...